“Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale her infinite variety”~ Shakespeare
Your life looks great on paper—but where's your 'infinite variety?'
You’re loved. You’re needed. You show up beautifully. So why don’t you feel like yourself anymore?
Shakespeare once wrote of Cleopatra:
“Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale her infinite variety.”
When did you stop feeling your own infinite variety?
Last night, you said yes to something you didn’t want to do.
It wasn’t a big decision.
Just dinner. A plan. A small ask.
You didn’t hesitate—at least not out loud.
But there was a moment.
A flicker. A quiet tightening in your chest.
You felt it…
and then you moved right past it.
You said yes. You showed up. You were warm, engaged, easy to be with.
No one would have guessed.
And somewhere in the middle of the conversation,
while you were nodding and listening and asking thoughtful questions—
you had the strangest feeling:
“I’m not really here.”
And I know this moment intimately.
I remember one beautiful, sunny day in Palos Verdes, California.
My husband and I were out exploring—one of those afternoons where everything feels open and full of possibility.
We found a garden. I wanted to explore it!
I stayed in the car while he went to check it out.
He came back a few minutes later and said, casually:
“It’s $14 a person. Let’s not do it.”
And something in me… shut down.
Not dramatically.
Not visibly.
But inside, I felt it.
My body went still. My voice disappeared.
In an instant, I wasn’t a grown woman sitting in the car on a beautiful day.
I was seven years old again—
with a father who believed nothing “extra” was worth paying for.
And there I was, sitting in the passenger seat of a brand new Tesla…
and I said nothing.
I didn’t say, “I’d love to go.”
I didn’t say, “This matters to me.”
I just… went along.
It didn’t look like a big moment.
But it was.
Because it wasn’t about the $14.
It was about how quickly I left myself.
How automatically I adjusted…
how easily I made my desire disappear to keep things smooth.
And the truth I had to face was this:
It wasn’t one moment.
It was thousands of moments like that.
Tiny overrides.
Quiet silences.
Small betrayals of what I felt and wanted.
Until one day, I realized—
I was living a life that looked fabulous…
but I wasn’t fully inside it.
And this is where Cleopatra comes in.
Not as some distant, dramatic queen—
but as a reminder of something you may have forgotten.
A woman who didn’t become smaller over time.
Didn’t become more predictable.
Didn’t smooth out her edges to keep the peace.
She remained alive to herself.
Responsive. Expressive. Present. Unpredictable!
And here’s the part that matters:
That “infinite variety” isn’t something Cleopatra had that you don’t.
It’s something you learned to turn down
in order to be loved, accepted, and pleasing.
So we don’t start with changing your life.
We start here:
The next time you feel that flicker—
that tiny moment before you say yes
—pause.
Just for a few seconds.
Long enough to ask:
What do I actually feel right now?
What is true for me in this moment?
You don’t even have to act on it yet.
Just don’t skip past yourself.
Because that flicker?
That’s where your infinite variety still lives.
You were once wild, don’t let them tame you” ~Isadora Duncan
If this resonates—and you’re ready to change this pattern, not just understand it—
Book a call with me
I help you find your Inner Cleopatra.
I help you come back into your own life…
not by blowing everything up—
but by reclaiming the parts of yourself you’ve left behind.
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